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Sunday, January 31, 2010
Just feel like blogging my feelings out now.
Thou I have stuff to do, I need to get this out of my chest first.
I felt burden for my parents.
They worked so hard yet they received so little pay.
I feel there's a much better pay out there waiting for them.
Felt abit stress and helpless especially now I do not really hold any job currently.
And money just kept going out. =X
Food each days cost a bomb. Really feel stress by just having limited amt of $$ in my wallet.
Wanted to save, but it seems so hard.
Even now if my friends asked me out for dinner and movie, I will think twice.
And most likely I will reject or postpone them.
But sometimes is really I have something on.
I need to really get income by myself too.
I have to learn how to juggle my time in studies, serving and work.
The feeling of not able to bless people around me, especially the love ones, was really unbearable.
I Don't like the feeling!
I BELIEVE IN RESTORATION!
I BELIEVE IN ABUNDANCE!
I TRUST IN THE LORD. HE IS MY PROVIDER!
Cell group is going to multiply this week.
But I guess I can't go anyway. Really frustrated thou.
I signed up for the Pokka promoter even though the pay abit low.
But I thought to myself, better than nothing.
Just stand there, smile, intro, money comes in.
But there's so much complication with it.
It takes away my time attending the last N282 cgm.
Hais. My sis is unable to change with me.
I change until I really want to give up ler.
Just let go. And stop thinking.
Anyway, there's nothing much I can do.
What's decided, it's formed.
My mood just cant help to be bad once again.
Psalm 92:1-4
I felt the encouragement.
And that's is enough.
loving wholeheartedly and fervently!
My Sisters