Just feel like blogging my feelings out now.
Thou I have stuff to do, I need to get this out of my chest first.

I felt burden for my parents.
They worked so hard yet they received so little pay.
I feel there's a much better pay out there waiting for them.
Felt abit stress and helpless especially now I do not really hold any job currently.
And money just kept going out. =X

Food each days cost a bomb. Really feel stress by just having limited amt of $$ in my wallet.
Wanted to save, but it seems so hard.
Even now if my friends asked me out for dinner and movie, I will think twice.
And most likely I will reject or postpone them.
But sometimes is really I have something on.

I need to really get income by myself too.
I have to learn how to juggle my time in studies, serving and work.
The feeling of not able to bless people around me, especially the love ones, was really unbearable.
I Don't like the feeling!

I BELIEVE IN RESTORATION!
I BELIEVE IN ABUNDANCE!
I TRUST IN THE LORD. HE IS MY PROVIDER!


Cell group is going to multiply this week.
But I guess I can't go anyway. Really frustrated thou.
I signed up for the Pokka promoter even though the pay abit low.
But I thought to myself, better than nothing.
Just stand there, smile, intro, money comes in.
But there's so much complication with it.
It takes away my time attending the last N282 cgm.
Hais. My sis is unable to change with me.
I change until I really want to give up ler.
Just let go. And stop thinking.
Anyway, there's nothing much I can do.
What's decided, it's formed.
My mood just cant help to be bad once again.

Psalm 92:1-4
I felt the encouragement.
And that's is enough.



Here I am.
At NTU's Mac now.
Charging my lappy. But my phone going no batt soon.

Had a great lunch with ChaoFan and Alicia.
We went and ate Zha Jiang Mian~ with a can of coke.
The taste not bad wor. =) whahaha.

Waiting for Isabel to come and meet me first.
She having lesson from 3.30 to 5.30pm.
hahahaha.

wanna watch movie on PPS but then seems to be not connected. Argh!
Btw I found a sponsor for my driving lesson lerr!!
Yipee!! =D

Praise the Lord for that!!! =D



Today was quite a slack day? =X
Have no lesson today. slept till like 10.30am.
But went back to sleep till 11am. =X Oops.
Actually only mummy called, then I was like willing to wake up.

Then went on Internet to search and see how can help sis appeal.
In my time, every poly have their own appeal system.
But heard from her is that only one form to all appeal.
And there's only like 3 choices. =X

I went to Temasek Poly web.
And tried to log in. Successfully entered in and submit the appeal while on the phone with her.
In order to complete the appeal procedure, they need the documents mailed to them.
But I will be sending it down personally to the school as mummy think by Snail mail really too slow. So I was the only one who doesn't have lesson tomorrow. So I was like appointed to go. =X

I'm willing to do it ok. I was like volunteer to go down de. =X Oops.

Encourage her to take up a course that she wanted.
Doesn't just want her to take something that she doesn't really like.
Thou I was one of those who has not much choices back then too, but I sort of liken what I'm doing right now. So that's the difference.

She has the talent to draw. And she's creative too.
If she can learn and do something related with that, I guess it'll be super great.
Praying for her!
Visualizing!
Confessing!!
Believing!!

All these shall come to pass!

Romans 8:28
And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.

My first driving lesson (practical) is on next Thursday.
I'm so excited about driving till I actually dreamt about myself parking the car
successfully. =D woohoo. I'm so excited about driving man!!
I want to drive! Sitting on the driving seat and controlling the car!! wow!!! =D

Tomorrow morning going for jogging! Hope I can wake up lar.
Been thinking quite a few days ler.
But didn't manage to fulfill it. =X
Oops. Thou i DUN like jogging, but I feel I really need to be healthy by exercising. =X
hahahaha.
Only feel myself eating and walking. hahaha. Plus sleeping and sitting! =X

Yup yup. Ok!
Going to sleep liao.
To have a higher chance to be able to wake up tomorrow!

Ipod nano is fully charged by now. =D
Have some kind of motivation through music I guess while jogging!

I want to improve my english!
I want to speak more english to be able to speak more fluently and
not singlish anymore!

DETERMINATION!!!



I'm currently in school now.
Central library to be specified.
Waiting for dearest Sze to end her work.

I guess sometimes I really think too much.
Am I good enough for these? Just sometime perhaps I don't deserve these things.
But when I have it, and suddenly lost it, it feels kind of bad.

I have to tell myself to check my heart every single time.

Sometimes I just wanted to let it go.
But sometimes I need some encouragements to keep me going.

Lol. Seems I have been crapping.
Wanted to upload pictures!! But I dun have cable with me now. =X

ChaoFan lend me her Ipod Nano!
Which I have been listening to. But I need to have more chinese songs inside perhaps.
Yup. If not i guess I'll be bored to ....

So far, school have been ok.
Always have friends around which I really super appreciate it!
i know it is the grace of God to place them in my life.
Thank You, Lord! For Your faithfulness and Mercy thou my faithless and disappointment to You.

Ok. Shall end here. update again!

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AH!!

My original codes are gone. =X
Maybe you will find it abit different!
Hais.

Shall edit when i'm free. =X


EEK~



Today is the 8th of Jan!
Angela's birthday.
Going to celebrate in the evening later on.
I had a new hair style for a great new year. =X

hahahhaa.

Today is also the NYP JAMMING. THE FOCUS will be competing too.

COOL! But I'm unable to be there physically to support as got the birthday
celebration dinner. =X

Will keep them high in spirit then. =)

JiaYOu!! The Focus! S.T.J!!


Ok! that's all.
Looking forward to service tml.

Monday celebrating mummy's birthday with her. =)
She is not working at night! Yesh!!
God is good man!
Seldom get to off.
and off at a special day. well-planned!
Praise the Lord.



Met Chaofan yesterday for steamboat @ bugis.
we ordered the wrong kind of soup based.
And it taste horrible.
As it is like you are putting the whole mouthful of oil inside your mouth. =X

But Chaofan is like enjoying BBQ-ing, adding all kinds of salt and sugar.
Deng. hahaha. But overall I like the time I spending time with her rather than the eating part.
Hahahaha.

The End...



this week is the last week I will be working here.
It was cool here to be in the office that seems like a home.
But it is a home anyway. Just for a different purpose than a usual one.

I get to know people here who are driven and focus.
They know what do they need to deliver and always get it done on time.
It is just so cool.

Only that the food here could be quite expensive thou.

School starting next week. Monday.
I just receive a confirmation that I had successfully bid the 4 core modules.
One more elective to go.

This Semester I will be taking up 4 core, 1 core elective and 1 elective.
Hmm. I must really pull up my socks and add oil le.
Cannot anyhow liao.
That is my vision for the semester.

Yup. =)

Had a great weeks spending time with cell group and friends.
From Candle-light service, Christmas drama, New Year countdown to New Year 2010.
Din really manage to spend much time at home.

Din really get to talk to my mummy, sisters.
Oops.
I took off this coming thursday to spend time with mummy.
She is awesome man. Forever understanding, supportive and encouraging at times.

I want to live a fruitful life.
I only have one life to live.
I shall treasure it.
I want to cherish all my loves ones who are still with me and is here for me.
i just want to show them in action how I appreciate them, love and care for them.

People are so interesting and cute.
I'm just so interested into their lives and wanna be there for them.

Just like sometimes I do too.
what is sow, shall be reap. =D yeah.

okok. shall stop here. =D

ZHEN!! YOU ARE BEING MISSED BY MOUSE!! =D