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Friday, June 13, 2008
jus feel like blogging. haha.
angela, erin and dar dar are blogging beside me too.
4 Coms in a straight row are on the same page "blogger".
LOLs..
yester went to bedok inter wif vian.
have dinner and wanting to find a job at bedok inter too.
yuan ben wanna meet swen de. but jus dunno wad time
she'll reach as she is gg to town first after her work.
walked the whole bedok inter ler but seems like no one
wants to hire part timer. except the SportsLink which i have
no confident of. :(
got a no. from Mr Bean. called but no1 answer.
i wan work there then can have soya blended for free.
yipee. but most importantly i have the interest in this. :)
i need $$$ !!!!
so contradited. when working, super tired, needed rest.
when no job, lack of $$$, everything become so budget and tight.
hais. wad should i do?!
job job.. faster come come!! i'm here waiting for ya!!
i found myself lonely.
sometimes jus cant find anyone to talk to.
share my heart matters wif.
hais. seems there's no one showing me care & concern?
i dunno is myself dun like to share or like to keep everything
to myself. especially my feelings. dunno why.
maybe jus feel that no one can understand so why bother
to explain so much. sometimes tot that why put my troubles
onto frens that i care so much.
i rather suffer alone and let it fade away hopefully.
cos i have STM mah. wont really out things to my heart.
i noe some of u reading these may think why i'm thinking this way.
maybe some of ur are angry wif me of nt sharing.
but i'm jus scare of losing frens.
jus feel that closer frens can jus standing beside me but
their hearts are drifted away from me.
issit i think too much?!
i'm nt sure.
it jus that my life is changing from year to year.
frens are leaving & drifting from me further and further.
i can be so happy and cheerful on the appearance.
but am i realli feel that way in my heart & soul?
i'm nt reali too sure.
is it possible for me to reali be who i am?
hais. or to put mask every now and then.
cant reveal my true self. the emo of me.
i love to bring laughter to my frens!
i love to see them laugh!
i love to see them happy!
i can be a joker and crazy gal..
but who can truely understand the inner part of me?
* jus posting my feeling that i feel right nw in my heart.
..............will u ever notice me................
loving wholeheartedly and fervently!
My Sisters